Let's take it from the top

(from October 7, 2023)

So anyway with new Israel-Hamas news AND American politics AND the ongoing Russia stuff, my latent “here are some of the signs of the coming-soon Three Days of Darkness, or the not-quite-end-times pre-end times, OR the actual end times” programming has arisen like a sleeper agent, and I’m just shouting “back, back!” while swiping at it with a broom

(This is extra frustrating because my rational brain is trying to focus on the humanitarian horrors and the realistic facts of things while the rest of my brain wants to wallow in selfish “AAHHHHH APOCALYPSE END TIMES FEAR AAAAAAAH” and I’m like Sit Down this is not about me Jesus Christ self. But deprogramming takes a long time and a lot of brain rewiring so I will try to donate to some aid groups and just Do My Best to rewire my neurons over time)

me: Our Lady said at Garabandal that the Great Warning and the Illumination of Conscience come sometime after—and maybe I’ve already been one of the ones to fall prey to the Antichrist’s solution to my problems being apostasy from Truth—the signs are only visible to those who have the eyes to see them and know what they’re looking for—nations will wage war and we’ve already had the explosion in Marian apparitions around the world, and they SAID most people would ignore the signs—they SAID it would be ultimate conflict in Israel and that Russia would rise up and wage war on the nations if it hadn’t been able to be fully converted through the power of the roasary, and China is banding together with Russia like was warned about years ago—

me, tiredly swinging a broom at my brain: girl you sound like a Qanon truther

(to anyone who is a practicing devout Roman Catholic and has problems with what I just typed out—yes I KNOW these aren’t in order and I KNOW not all of these are approved prophecies from official Church Mystics I KNOW. I’m not going for accuracy here I’m going for “represent a fraction of the swirling and out-of-order thoughts ping-ponging through my brain” okay. Go back to Catholic Fox News EWTN and leave me alone.)

Anyway. Going to read Dawkins and play with my dog and breathe and meditate and be so normal about this